The heart is the substance.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

new adventure

Well, Tuesday is moving day... unbelievable.

It's harder than I thought it would be to say goodbye to the friends I have made here and even the city itself. I feel like I have made the most of my year here. Durham is a really cool place. I am going to miss i t. I also made some really amazing friends here. It's almost like going to camp. You have an experience for a short amount of time that nothing else will ever be like. There's no year that will be like this one. Not only do I just mean working in the hospital, but also the people, the sites, the independence of living alone. I had someone write me a card today, that said they admired me for my independence. Well... I'm not sure that's ever happened! haha.

In the health update, I went to the doctor on tuesday and I have absolutely no leaking from my valve repair. This is great news. I got an all around good report. So, how do I feel? Well, I'm still tired and I really wish my stamina were better, but it will just take time. I'm hoping to do a little bit of cardiac rehab to get back to where I want to be physically. I am still in pain, which I was informed by the docs is going to last awhile (months). Apparently, the surgery I had (although minimally invasive) actually leaves people in pain for a longer period of time. My cardiologist said that people tend to complain about pain longer than they do with the open heart surgery! What? I know, I find it hard to believe.... that is until I wake up and get a sharp pain through my shoulder and then I think... it's plausible. Most of all, I am grateful that I am healthy and the future looks very bright.

A new adventure begins.

Saturday, August 8, 2009


Lord Jesus Christ,
May my confidence in you enable me to move into whatever comes next.
May my love for you be shown by placing faith in people.

When I am not sure where to go, in your mercy, take my hand.
Help me to understand what I can, whether feeling or thought.

Give me the courage to speak and the courage to be silent.

When I do not live up to who I am and who you have created me to be, forgive me.

Nothing will come between us, O Lord. Keep me close.