The heart is the substance.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Endings are Beginnings

I decided to begin a blog about my upcoming heart valve repair surgery. I hope to include both feelings and thoughts about the process as well as helpful information for any young person beginning this journey. I have found very few resources for the 20's crowd undergoing heart surgery. So... I am going to start the movement.

I plan to post "my story," to catch everyone up on how I came to be in need of a heart valve repair.

Today, I really wanted to say that a lot has ended in my life over the past few weeks. My grandmother passed away, I graduated from graduate school, I said goodbye to a lot of friends that I may never see again, and I ended my CPE residency. Finding out about having a heart surgery was not the way I intended to begin my real adult life. I hoped to have a job, be supporting myself, and be in a position to be completely independent. I did not intend to have my mother stay with me so she could drive for me and help me out of bed. I did not intend to stop dead in my tracks to complete this task, while the rest of the world moves on with plans, jobs, and exciting trips. In all of these endings, I know there is a new beginning. I hope that the renewal of my heart will be the beginning of at least a few years of peace in my heart.

June 1st. A new beginning. I'm almost 26, you know. Another new beginning.

Something to ponder:
How have you experienced beginnings in your life?
Consider endings that have paved the way for new beginnings.


  1. Thank you for sharing your story and clarifying your condition. You are a very brave young lady. I pray for holy healing of your body and peaceful trust in the Lord in the days to come. My thoughts and prayers are with. Peace and Love, Connie David

  2. Thanks Ms. Connie. I appreciate you taking time to read it.